splashes of colour

2005-03-02T20:26:00.000-08:00

i'm feelin' skyhigh! :D

off the coast.

2005-02-17T19:00:00.000-08:00

some bloggin gotta be done.

ok, life's as usual.
am so glad to came across you. :D

i'm in no mood for sec3 camp.
heh, lazy to pack n stuff lidat.
n i need a new camp bag!

alrite, off for dinner. X)

2005-01-29T05:42:00.000-08:00

bless ur little heart. :)

2005-01-24T20:48:00.000-08:00

trash you.

one of e bad days.

2005-01-23T09:50:00.000-08:00

updates.

mr kee threatened to strip off my pec post.
yes. cos it've been e third time i'm late for sch.
tis month. lol.
n i need to report to sch everydae at 7.15.
to sign e crap paper which i'm not gonna care.

watched elektra.
damn, nice creepy show.
well, onli e climax.
it's still nice. =)

heaven; it's so real.

2005-01-10T18:47:00.000-08:00

yesh. mr kee decided to cancel off my name.
n i've no detention! lols.
told him it wasnt my fault.
it was e train driver.
he was late.
not mi. =))

went out wif john-cousin.
watch ware's mama boi.
no. dun eva tink of goin watch.
if u haven.
its a damn crap show.
mayb e worst of e worst i eva seen.
william hung actually acted in it.
yes. as u might hav guess.
he was actin retarded.
but wif a diff song tis time.
it's not "she bangs". X)
its about chi cakes.
wif healthy nutritious.
lols.yes. a chi song.

misses.

2005-01-09T16:49:00.000-08:00

yep, no doubt.
look, hu's back?
lols.

looks lyk my new yr resolutions din help much.
its not even e 2nd month of 2005'.
n i've been late for sch 2 times.
well. tis looks bad.
yes. i escape from detention.
yippee.
jus pray hard tt dey wun find mi.
n cum questioned mi.

the disconnect world.

2005-01-03T20:07:00.000-08:00

well. i decided to stop bloggin.
for a period of time. =D
its gettin' all borin in here.

crushes rubbish bin'

2004-12-31T23:34:00.000-08:00

went watch meet e fockers.
yes.i manage to get in. =)
not surprising though.
cine peeps neva once care bout such tings.
ok. tats wat i heard.
so i went dere. lols.
another great comedy show.
baby mouthing arsehole's reali cute.
haha. a reali nice show.

bad day for mi.
lols. i tot i lost hy's ezlink for good.
yes. i used her card.
mine's no value.
i was stuck at eunos station.
n i couldnt get off w/o her card.
well. e truth is.
i handed e card back to her.
even b4 i was out of my station!
yes. i noe tat is retarded.
it gotta be my worse situation ever.
moreover she wasnt wif mi.
she was way far back at farrer park.
haas. i decided to use my card n get out.
lols.of cos is a nono
ended up fakin to e control station.
n askin y i couldnt get out.
haha. tat was my onli path?
yea. e man manage to done sth to my card
n i did get off afterall. =)

ok peeps.
happi 2005'!

crushes almighty.

2004-12-30T20:02:00.000-08:00

3-4 form might be ms kheh.
heck care attitude.
lols. tat's e impression she given mi.
hmm. ok.
i'll take it as a great news.
*grins.

went tm after gettin' my uniform.
wif hy.
ok. cant say i've a fun time.
she was havin headache.
i din felt ani better either.
nah. its alrite.
at least, i get away from home.
more like away from bro. lols

bad counsellor i am.
din made u feel ani better.
felt tt it might hav been worse.
so reali sori.
cheer up alrite? =)

ok. sum new yr resolutions.
-stop pickin fights wif my bro.
-better to mum.
-gettin late to sch is a nono.
-stop vandalisin all my tb.
-make sure i studied for all papers.
-oh yes. mainly, stop tinkin' bout him.

crushes.

2004-12-29T20:10:00.000-08:00

brought my books.
finally.
e queue kills. (haas. it rythms.)
1 hour of standing.
probably gettin mi uniform tml.

i'm findin new skin again.
i hate tt caption.
i wanna get rid of it.
perhaps a more cheery skin would do.
lols.

the day hasnt been so good for mi.
bein called a bitch in e mornin.
wasnt nice either.
you jus hav to go pick e wrong date.
wen i was feelin so bad bout u.
i decided to give it a end.
n here cums ur msg.
well. jus my luck den.

dun label mi.

2004-12-27T20:32:00.000-08:00

yippeee!
go on.
tag my board
n congratulate mi.
my appeal class hav been approved!
i'm goin 3-4.
no lit for mi. =))
tats great.

went town again.
those crowds reali bore mi to death.
but wanted to get sum tings.
no much choice.

watch kung-fu hustle!
soooo comical.
lols. i was luffin my ass out.
wat a fiction movie.
haas. it would be possible to rate it 5 star.

the love has died; once again.

2004-12-26T20:37:00.000-08:00

i curse my stupidity.
i curse my plain foolishness.
ware all tis would happen in e nite.
ware i could not go to slp.
n all those would take control over mi.
lets not tok bout it.

do u get lost in ur dreams?
as a matter of fact.
i do.
lols. n u hav to brainstorm in ur dreams.
tats pretty cool.
or at times.
i would jus wake myself up.
tink of sth to continue.
n back to my dreams. =)
y not?
i love dreamin.
haas. bless e giver of e dream.
though sumtimes it might jus be rubbish dreams.
take example.
only cucumber can save e world.
n man would only lyks "morning girls".
sound stupid.
oh yea.
dun ask wats "morning girls".
unless u happen to be in my dreams.

iloveyou; simply not enough.

2004-12-26T01:15:00.000-08:00

back home not long go.
lols. e fort cannin party was great.
though sum "idiots" came spraying my hair.
wif e SNOW sprayer.
aint cool wen u got sprayed.
tat tingy was sticky n stinky.
i admit.
i go round spraying ppl's hair too. =X
nah. i bathed.
so its alrite.
its e fun tat counts.

oh rite.
i went chinky's service too.
the lost christmas.
haas. mi n hy hav to leave half way.
for e party.
wen e pastor was givin his tok.
sort of embarrasing.
wen thousands of ppl r lookin at u.
walkin off.
lols. ok. i exaggerated.
not thousands though.
as i say.
dey r friendly peeps.
dey do wave goodbye as u leave.
ok. tats manners.

oh yep.
thanx chinky; liyan; xiuying.
for e presents. =D

a memorable christmas.

2004-12-25T10:54:00.000-08:00

few days ago.
anonymous named michael called.
sayed to be my sis classmate.
n asking to tok to "mrs cheong".
claimed to be a gigolo.
n having a dick 8 inches long.
haas. show mi a dick tat long.
n i'll believe.
nah. i was jus joking.
but 8 inches is lyk a length of a ___?
heh. i dunno.
lol. i din noe wat my mum said.
bet everyting was funni.
even dad burst into luff-ter.

initially was supposed to go out wif john.
john=cousin
he gotta work last mins.
so went out wif sis n cher ydae.
lol. n i'm dying to meet him now.

watch phantom of the opera.
its eerie n nice in its own way.
esp. wen e intruments starts playing.
it way right scary.
ok. mayb to mi.
lols. those hu enjoy e art of singin.
should go watch it.
it's a eng opera; musical sort.
heard tat e rating for e show was quite high.

brought a fila bottle.
ok. its sort of small.
but it suits mi.
so yea.
i dun mind.

i dreamt again.
dreamt of you.
i wan to stop dreaming.
come to tink of it.
i do do foolish n stupid tings at nite.
cant blame it.
its a nature.

once again.
thanx for all e x'mas cards peeps.

i'm off for party! =D

merry christmas.

2004-12-23T20:25:00.000-08:00

thanx for those TIPs.
to cure hipcups.
i tried all.
ani efficient ones?
haas. except one.
cherryl's method.
boo-ing self.
real interesting.

went to beach wif hy.
to relieve self.
those strolling n lookin-at-waves does helps.

since its so easy for you to forget mi.
it'll be easy for mi too.
u're off my mind.

borrowed another of nicholas sparks books.
the rescue.
e last one made mi cried.
the message in e bottle.
lols. i'm in love wif tat author now.
i love his books.

thanks for all those christmas cards peeps.

its possible; ihateyou.

2004-12-22T21:47:00.000-08:00

ways to cure hipcups.
- hold ur breathe for 30 sec.
- drink ur water frm e opp site of ur cup.
- 7 sips of water at a time.
tats all i noe.
animore? tell mi.
i'm sufferin' from serious hipcups.

no new books. =(
gotta wait till 29th.

ok. 3 more days to christmas.
send out onli half of e cards.
pathetic.
bet e rest half gonna received late.
so reali sorri.

its impossible; to forget u.

2004-12-21T20:22:00.000-08:00

brought a ripcurl bag.
how great.
now i look at it.
i dun lyk it.
sch bag supposed to be.

went town.
wif xy n hy.
haas.
thanx for e great time!

letter or no.
gonna buy my books tml.

i'm happi.
cos my feelings r numb.
i'm happi.
cos u r.
i'm happi.
cos i sorted it all out.
i'm jus happi. =))

pure joy.

2004-12-20T14:50:00.000-08:00

keith called sch today.
e result aint out.
i've to wait till end of dec.
to noe my class.
tats crazy.
sch sure noe how to keep mi in suspense.
guess my new books hav to wait den.

i'm missin' sch.
i miss wearing uniform.
haas.
i'm missin all my corny friens.
i miss all e crappin' round.

i'm beginnin to hate excuses.
dey jus dun cum in e right time.
everyting's jus so rubbish.

i get over it.
real soon.
i trust myself to do tat.

trials r part of life.

2004-12-20T01:07:00.000-08:00

one of my worst nite.
ware tears would jus come n go.
n givin mi swollen eyes in e morning.
n all thoughts would jus come by my mind.

i could rmb.
y i let tis blogger user end it wif a "23".
n i couldnt believe.
tat all tis would cum to an end.
today e 19th.

i dun feel special animore.
e way i used to feel.
i feel reali terrible now.
i need my girlfriends badly.

yes.
i do regret wat i've done.
i'm changin.
nobody's noticing.
dey jus feel the same.
but i dun.
tats wat reali hurts mi.

tings he said hit mi reali hard.
i dun wanna sound lyk i'm seeking sympathy n all.
ware i'm reali am not.
i jus feel sum part of mi missing.

i can tell from a few days ago.
i ought to expect tis.
but i dun wanna tink.
i brought tis upon myself.
i ought to be blamed.
no used broodin bout it.

now tat e tears r all over e keyboard.
i'm feelin a little better.

everyting's over.

2004-12-18T20:51:00.000-08:00

yayy.
i passed my 2star kayaking course.
skills in 2star r reali interesting.
lot more den 1star.
n i lurve my groupmates!
haas. i din made e wrong choice.
goin e course.
i'm gonna hav my 3star.
but at least 5 expeditions to pass.
i've no idea how i'm goin find time to do it.
but i will.

yeaa.
keith gonna help mi call sch n ask.
e class i'm goin. =))
how nice of him.
thank you.

i've been losin tings all day long.
my ez-link r gone.
my zen notebook r gone.
moreover its lost in my house.
n i cant find it.
now all e add contacts r gone as well.
i need em back!
or else e christmas cards neva be out.

iloveyou; more den anione does.

2004-12-17T21:03:00.000-08:00

darn.
sch gonna start.
n i hav yet to noe my class.
cant be bothered to call sch.
i guess it wun be ani help either.
so i jus gonna sit n wait for e letter.

e christmas mood's gone.
no worry.
i'm still sendin out cards. =))

ok. i was right.
my arms hurts wen i woke up today.
jus a little twist.
n i would go ouch.
lols. i needed a real good massage.

my thoughts r gone.
i no longer wan to tink.
foolish actions lead mi into nightmare.
n i mean it.
its a nightmare.

get mi out of you.

2004-12-16T21:24:00.000-08:00

expedition's todae.
sea sick.
was towed by instructor.
my whole body went numb.
couldnt feel my finger.
jason volunteered.
towed mi back to our training place.
good ting was i dun hav to paddle.

haas. i'm gonna hav my star3 next yr.
sch gonna subsidize.
so y not.

my arms definitely gonna hurt tml morning.
my hands r burned.
e sleeves distinctive tanned lines.

guess i'm not helpin out at e charity booth.
at nite.
animore.
so mani peeps volunteered.
unlikely to be my turn.
so yea.
too bad for mi den.

smile in between tears.

2004-12-15T22:03:00.000-08:00

weee.
i got a free cabbie ride to mrt from sumone.
after my kayakin course.
its so much better den star 1.
mayb e problem lies wif e intructor.

got a few burns on my face.
its getting obvious under white lights.
lols. my cheeks n nose r bound to get burns.
everytime.

e weather's great.
hope it'll be a hazzard for e next two days.
eventually expedition would be cancel.
-i am tinking too much.

i am getting e cold.
e rain doin bad for mi.
wat can i do.
its e monsoon seasons.

worse fear.
getting up tml.
n having my arms hurts lyk hell.

be my christmas gift.

2004-12-14T21:01:00.000-08:00

cool.
e wound on my hand.
since last gb camp.
still was dere.
it changes colour under tat hot sun.
PURPLE. e gay colour.

tml's e kayaking course.
i hav no idea how i'm goin to pass.
e expedition alone can kills.
moreover its e monsoon season now.
sun or no.
i'll be all dark again.

i cld feel my heartbeat wen i call.
i cld feel myself shaking wen i ans.
i cld feel e pain of ur sick voice.
i found out.
found out tat i was crying wen i put down.
i miss you.

expect n' expect for disappointment in return.

2004-12-12T22:50:00.000-08:00

went to town.
help out in gb.
sum cambodia tingy.
tired mi out.
jus giving away stacks n stacks of booklets.
n editing the dates n all.

dey haven got mi e letter i wan.
been so long.
no letters.
=no new books.
=no new uniforms.

christmas is cuming.
yippee.
searching for christmas blogskin.
nah. cant find.
all jus terrible.

i adore tat second glance.

2004-12-11T21:49:00.000-08:00

sth bothering mi bout her.
i hav no clues wats sth.
it jus bother mi.

went to chinky's church.
peeps dere r nice.
friendly n all.

borrowed this nicholas sparks's book.
message in a bottle.
still searching.
a walk to remember.
heard its reali nice.
no idea.
hav not read.

getmeoutofyou.

2004-12-11T01:25:00.000-08:00

back from gb dinner not long go.
blessed r those hu din went.
trust it to be sum 4 star hotel.
the food taste horrible.
not much entertainment either.
it was sort of bored.
it depends e table u're sitting.
n e table i'm sitting jus sort of plain dead.
too bad for mi den.

was walking home in e reali heavy rain.
hoping i could get all sick.
jus my luck.
i din.
my jacket was sort of waterproof.

sumtimes i jus felt reali blessed n all.
wif all those reali great friens ard mi.
the listening ears dey lend mi.
those concern-bout-mi looks.
it jus felt reali great.
nah. i hav no idea wat i was tinking in e past.
but deep down.
sumtimes i felt lyk a loser.
i dunno.

whao. mum brought e new tv.
its reali reali huge.
i jus dun get use c-ing those big big faces.
on screen.
i mean on my own tv.
guess i jus gotta get use to it.
e old wan was spoilt.
my little bro did it.
pour water on it n all.

i found my specs!
but its all crashed.
everyting jus broke into half.
gotta get a new one b4 sch starts.

i'm attached to you.

2004-12-09T20:42:00.000-08:00

eeeeww.
imagine e side of ur bed's bloody.
created by ur little bro's nose bleed.
guess he was findin sth to rub his nose's blood off.
n my bed was e nearest to him.
gross-

tml e gb dinner.
gotta wear everyting all white.
lyk wrapped up mummy.
cos i'll be holding a candle.
or mayb be one.
i dunno.
n it cost mi 50 bucks for goin.
n i myself gonna pay for it.
ware do i find such amount of cash?!?
moreover e kayaking star 2 course's cumin.
another 40 bucks be gone.
i'll be dead broke wen sch reopens.

tinkinyou.

2004-12-07T10:33:00.000-08:00

time to update.

went out wif jy.
back to no cash state.
brought christmas cards n all.
n a box of plasters.
wen i onli need 1 for my blister foot.
uh. or mayb a few more.

went to watch christmas wif e kranks.
comedy -- cross out.
or mayb i was jus lacking sense of humor.
ending was nice though.

wen to 2-4 chalet ydae.
fun i say.
bowling.
the way the guys played.
u would hav luff if u saw it.
the basketball style.
tats e way dey played it.
bowling? basketball?
doesnt sound at all matching huh.
luv bbq time.
though i din help out much. =X
the fire was not even started after 1 hr.
dey had a hard time doin tat i believe.
nah. overall it was still fun.

missyou.

2004-12-03T22:38:00.000-08:00

imagine.
you. you urself.
bein slap.
bein beaten.
by a younger bro.
n havin to tolerate his nonsense.
in e public.
n was stared by crowds.
n jus becos he lost his dumb toys.
n end up his dumb toys was found.
back home.
n here comes his unsincere sori.
how would u feel?

forgive n forget.

2004-12-02T22:34:00.000-08:00

christmas!
one of e best dae in e yr.
wif the christmas tree n socks hung up.
n the given out christmas cards.
n the turkey awaiting for mi to eat! =))
i am waiting!
waiting.

whao.
my hair.
drastic change.
i look so diff now.
ponytail still stinks. =(

the teeny little tears drops.
wen the you came across my mind.
ydae.
helps easy slping. =P

christmas is wat its all about.

2004-12-01T23:08:00.000-08:00

straighten hair.
cut fringe.
cut hair.
ponytail stinks. -right at tis moment-

taufik won.
yippee.
though i din vote. =X
might hav guess tat.
n sly hav to go sing an jing.
tats bad.

changes made by you.

2004-11-30T15:18:00.000-08:00

distinctive change.
to bless others.
wif all the small little ting i've done.
the thought of mi comes last.
n tat He lives in mi.

though it wasnt easy.
my mood hav been switchin on n off.
recently.
the thought of past makes mi cry.
the thought of regrets.
the thought of joy tat i've bring.
the thought of blessing i've share.

i've grown. -thru tis camp-
n yet to grow more.
i desire.
desire His words.
how ppl out dere toking bout mi.
wun bother animore.
i make changes.
the distinctive changes in mi.
right now.
all i am tinkin of is my family.
to bless em in small little ways.
to treasure em.
n all the love dey hav given mi.

though i still cant get you off my mind.
at times.
i guess you hav long forgotten mi.
but i wun.

blessed to bless.

2004-11-29T23:25:00.000-08:00

miss camp.
wasnt wat i expected.
was alot better.
mayb the best of all in gb.

couldnt slp well for e very first nite.
my upset stomach.
waking up n den.
all the activity was rather fun.
yea.
even went town play.
coolest of all.

i couldnt help missing my family.
to my surprised.
esp. my bro.
his sweet little cute smile.
tat could not take off my mind.

i wun forget tat pastor.
He touched mi.
my life.
the way i neva felt b4.
His presence in the room.
i could feel it.
the tings tat happen n i saw.
tat i neva experience it b4.
my thought.
was brought back to Lord.
my position.
was bein questioned.
i regretted.
not walking up.
lacking courage.
i've blow off the chances.
tat was given to mi.
i couldnt feel my heartbeats.
my sins.
tat i pray n ask for forgiveness.
i cried.
for He've touched mi.

He lives in mi.

2004-11-29T22:44:00.000-08:00

Since i've found your love
I've never needed anything to fill my heart
Even when i fall
You're always there with open arms to pick me up
From the start i knew
No one else could make me feel the way you do
Everyday i want to grow
Just a little bit closer, just a little bit closer

I want to be a reflector
I want to shine with your glory
I want to let the whole world know that you're
Living in me

I want to burn with your fire
Shine my light a little brighter
I want to let the whole world know that
Jesus Lives in me

2004-11-25T21:07:00.000-08:00

sick of tat cursor of mine.
gonna change it sooner or later. =))

i would be e biggest arsehole in world.
if i continue to send you any msges.
right now.
i feel lyk e biggest fool ever.

i dread facing the world outside.
i hate the crowds.
i am not tryin to say i am anti-social or wat.
jus getting reali tired looking at so mani faces.
dey get mi to judge n set my mind off tinking.
wondering bout all sorts of tings.
its so horrid.

devotion planning.
rather fun.
rehersal.
2 verse solo for mi. =P
mayb my throat would jus sore wen e dae cums.
too bad den.

my mood is seriously bad now.
nah. nobody's gonna give a damn.

back to camp packing.

2004-11-24T22:28:00.000-08:00

yippee. i found a layout.
nice n simple.
still doin on it.
mayb will get it all done by tml.

burn my finger jus now.
blame the hot soup.
haha. XD
den now i got a cut on my leg.
a lonnng wan.
not deep though.
doesnt hurt much.
simply bleeding.

i am smelly.
dun get near mi.
haha. =X
bath time~!

matters most to mi.

2004-11-24T17:44:00.000-08:00

tis is getting so unlyk of mi.
drinking coffee. -was neva my style-
moreover is e bitter sort kind.
worse of all. i neva lyk coffee.
haha. ok. i'm doin all kind of weird tings.
to keep mi tinking y am i doin it.
n i wun hav e chance to tink of you.
sheesh. but i am still tinking of you? =X
tis is bad.

i yearn tat voice again.
u noe. i reali lyk tat voice of urs.
i mean. its reali nice.
yea. reali nice.
one of the best in the world.
but i'm not gonna hear it ever again.
ever. sigh**

been reading tis book.
something borrowed. -by tina reilly-
e story line's great.
haha. try borrowing it.

i'm rotting at home.
since morning.
tis is getting bored.

he's oblivious of everyting.

2004-11-24T13:53:00.000-08:00

stomach been reali unwell tis few daes.
hav to go to the loo now n den.
to move my bowel.
n get rid of toxic.
its lyk i am suffering from food poisoning or sth.
haha. =X

i felt lyk a big fool last nite.
temperamental mi.
jus couldnt get over it. =(

i wasnt feeling reali good last nite.
n bro broke tat shell candle.
no reason y.
i started crying real hard.
fall alsp soon after tat.

guess i'm gonna stay home all day long.
dun wanna face tat crowd outside.
i feel horrible.

confused n torn.

2004-11-23T22:47:00.000-08:00

i couldnt hold on ani longer.
i jus hav to cry it out.

2004-11-23T20:04:00.000-08:00

i am getting sick of my blogskin.
haha. dying to change.
oh yea. reena blogskin rox.
haha. e toilet roll tingy.

planning for devo again.
bore.
oki. mayb not planning.
practising. haha.
e camp's theme song is nice.
but i tink last yr was better?
foot of the cross. -one of the devo songs-
the song tune was so hard to catch.
it was way low.

wasnt feeling reali good wen i got out of e house.
was even more dead wen i reach sch.
so distracted by all my tinkings during devo.
was gonna cry my heart out.
but i din. -tats a good ting- =))
or ppl would tink i am crazy? -if i did-

ok. i am still waiting for my letter.
haha. wonder hav dey even send yet.
i bet not.

i lay my burden down.

2004-11-22T22:59:00.000-08:00

mum brought mi a shell candle for no reason?
was tat trying to please mi?
i dunno.
wasnt on reali good term with her tis few daes.
so was reali nice of her to do tat.

parents nag.dun dey?
but i guess she have gone off the limit.
tat i have to jus shut off my ears wenever she toks.

i'm looking at e stars again. gulp*
emergency of throwing it away.
i am thinking again.
tinking of you. sigh*

argh. y does e hell e letter takes so long to send.
arrive or watever shit.
i wan my books.
no rejection pls.
breakdown would received.
so pls send tat approval letter now.

was neva allow to send you msg. so. good nite.

2004-11-22T20:23:00.000-08:00

You're an Angst writer!

What kind of writer are you?

making ppl suffer? did i? haha.
try tis out~!

waiting.
i am waiting.
waiting for e letter of approval.

you.
i am tinking.
tinking of you.

tings dun go e way u wan em to.

2004-11-22T18:09:00.000-08:00

dun let mi caught ani guy wearing jeans n black t again.
it jus remind mi of you. =X
if you wanna noe.
i am still pinnin on my hopes.
to be ur closest frien. =))
its possible. -if ur willing-

whoo~ my gums r burn.
from those hot sticky cheesy bites.

back home not long go.
jus to do tat dumb tag.
blame mi for saying tis.
the tags r jus horrible.
stinks totally.
heck. lyk we gonna wear it for long.
i jus gonna dump it aside after camp.

i am in need of a new camp bag.
seriously.
mine's jus too small.
moreover tat's gonna be a plain bore 4 daes gb camp.
at sabawang campsite?
how fun can it get.

the last ting on my mind. you.

2004-11-21T22:29:00.000-08:00

damn. u hav to go ahead n hurt mi lidat.
my lips got cut.
from all those dumb biting of paper.
my tears r jus hanging on dere.
my thoughts r wondering.
frien.
tats all i ever ask for now.
y does it seems so hard to accomplish.
i lose you.
i am sori.

2004-11-21T21:50:00.000-08:00

sheesh. how did ya came bout to noe my blog.
now all my feelings written here r jus so limited.
i [[repeat]]. limited.
tats e disadvantage of blog huh.
ya.true. a written diary is seriously better.

looking at e star again. sigh*
mayb i should jus throw em away.
n i wun tink of you animore.
e pink bottle n everyting.
n e stars which contain small notes.
dun even wan to open up n read em all over again.
cos i would jus smudge all e ink away.

but i dunno y.
u have instilled fear in mi.
tat fear wen msging u.
it jus feel so horrible.

i neva wanted to lose you.
but now it seems all possible.

2004-11-21T18:22:00.000-08:00

my mind tells mi to give up.
but my heart wun let mi.

2004-11-21T16:07:00.000-08:00

i am sori.
neva wanted to hurt you. -ever-
both will be hurt. -if we'r back dere-
u neva noe.
jus wan to be ur close frien.
cant we?
ok. its alrite.
we need time to cool down.
forget everyting.
n we'll be friens again.
can you?
looking at e stars.
hav i made e wrong choice.
i dunno.
i feel lost.
i need time.
but nobody's gonna wait for mi to make my choices.
i guess tats e end.
n e start.
to e new friendship.
i am sori.

distractions are everyware.

living in tat world of darkness.

2004-11-20T20:11:00.000-08:00

disappointment.
e result was jus way too shocking.
nah.nth to do wif mi aniwae.
expected wat i got.
so its reali alrite i guess.

i feel so lyk a "change" person rite now.
i hate it.
although i appear jus to be e same old me.
wish i jus hav given much more time by you.
i reali dun wan a repeat of history.
yea. i am reali scared tat it will happen.
i am jus not ready.
but i noe u wun.
cos its all over.
i miss all e times.
i am sori.

living in tat world of darkness.

2004-11-19T22:08:00.000-08:00

chinky ruin my dae. =X
haha.

marks e end of everyting.

2004-11-18T20:16:00.000-08:00

devotion retreat.
jus plain planning for e annual camp.
nth much.
makes mi all tired now.
was lyk yawning in tat freezy hall dozen times per 15 mins.

so full.
no eaten dinner yet.
eat lot tis afternoon.

my life's jus plain bore.

2004-11-17T22:27:00.000-08:00

rmb e dae.
17 nov 2004.
10:10 pm.
cos its special to mi. =))

dun ask mi y.

2004-11-17T20:30:00.000-08:00

sth's wrong wif tag-board.

snap out if it**
ur goin e wrong way.
i live my life for others.
not for myself.
i have no need you in my life.
neither to criticise mi.
ok.ur not den.
ur jus stating all e facts.
aint it.
awaez ponder bout all e decision i've made.
n to tink.
i made e right choice tis time.
friens? dun even tink bout it now.
is not even likely possible.
i mean now.
we jus dun click.
i need time.
u neva gave mi tat.
i neva lead you on.
i can promise tat.
i neva.
but if i reali did.
i'm sori.
i neva wanted to.
all i wish for now.
jus you bein a frien.
for a lifetime.
wun tink ani further den.

drill totally rock 2dae.
bond-ed.
haha.
play "basketball" wif squad after.
u wun even wan to call tt if u c us played. =X
fun aniwae.

i'm avoiding.ur creating.

2004-11-16T23:38:00.000-08:00

ooh.my left leg hurts.
its totally numb.
the heavy weird feeling is dere.
sori.
no description.
pain.
tats e onli word i can tink of now.

neva felt tis way before.
rebellious.
rebels.
my family.
my mum.
seriously had enuff.
cant u c i had a hard time controlling myself now.
short temper.
u created mi.
i dun hate you.
sumtimes we both jus should settle down.
n tok.
ya.u say it.
i am stubborn.
i admit.
i am.
we jus lack communication.
tats serious enuff.
i wan no more of tat.
communicate.
pls.
i wun wan c our relationship tearing apart.
its bad enuff.
one more step.
n dere's no amend to tat.
moreover we r staying under one roof.
nobody would wan to c each other damn faces.
if it happens.
i am sori.
for everyting i cause.
u wun be happi too.
if sumone jus scold u for e hell no reason.
n tats happening to mi.

neva felt tis way before.

2004-11-16T20:34:00.000-08:00

yippee.
make it on time.
last dae appealing classes today.
din noe.
end up mum hav to rush down to sch from work.
jus to sign tat damn paper.
hope it'll be approve den.

heading back home from jy hse.
saw tis reali super cute boi at e bus-stop.
i was seriously staring** at him.
uh.mind you.
he's onli pri 2.
i guess.
haha. =P

2004-11-15T19:55:00.000-08:00

u dun hav e right to say i am one.
i'm not replying.
not tat stupid to go ans you.
u noe.
stupidity.
oh yea? it has nth to do wif you either.
jus get out of my life.
ur contradicting.
contradicting.
seriously. feeling sad tat u become lyk tis.
i am not gloating over it.
i'll difinitely pray for you.
watever.
lyk ur gonna thank mi for it.
u would be insulting instead.
tats e prob wif you.
kind n good?
to wat extend do you say.
sick of hearing everyting.
from you.
n gosh. can you believe how gullible was i.
to believe tat actually you was diff from others.
special.
unique.
how wrong was i.
u r no diff from those stupid dumb n idiot peeps out dere.
i was so wrong.
yet e monsterous you is jus standing right in front of mi.

tis aint my dae.

a decision tat decides n changes everyting.

2004-11-15T15:05:00.000-08:00

fcuk off.
cos you jus pissed mi off.
so wat ur taking ur o's tis yr.
doesnt mean u hav e right to everyting.
not even e right of slapping my arms.
cos it hurts.
so jus get e hell outta mi.

big meanie.
wats wrong wif jus bein friens.

you wun wan to c tis side of mi now.
cos i am fuming.
right now.

i am getting out of hand.

2004-11-14T17:25:00.000-08:00

oki. decided.
tues go take form opt.
hope will be approve den.

man. my left arm hurts lyk hell.
been slping e whole dae.
nah. mayb jus lying on e bed.
not slping =X

damn. my hp bill 2dae.
gonna exceed lot.
sheesh. hope no nagging for mi.
i am jus sick of it.

dun be lyk tis.
cos it hurts mi too.

2004-11-13T23:10:00.000-08:00

i am not lying in e previous blog.
am i?

2004-11-13T23:02:00.000-08:00

feeling lost.
should i opt?
guess i should jus c how tings goin on first.

yeap.
i have overcome it.
overcome e prob of you.
jus tinking lot tis few daes.
tats all. =))
claps**

2004-11-13T19:00:00.000-08:00

lalala.
blog again -.-
i'm jus bored.
dun blamed.
yippee.tanned my legs.
got rid of tat distinctive line. =))
got it bland "properly" finally.
haha.i am all dark again.
dark.
burned.
slowly.skin tear.

whee~ i can opt down!
haha.i mean my mum ask mi to =)
hope it'll be approve.
dots. now so lazi get tat opt form.

2004-11-13T17:30:00.000-08:00

camp ---> constipation.
yea.back from camp.
haha.though its onli e 2 daes tingy.
was reali great fun.
moreover e campsite was so cool.

e first ting we did:
kayaking!
haha.mayb dey should hav jus cut short the briefing.
was reali so bored.
ended up partnering a guy i dunno.
n e "practical" is practically jus too short.
i meant e time.
oh ya.rock climbing.
trust mi.
it isn't easy at all.
not as easy as it seems.
the small little dumb ting on e wall was jus so hard to grip.
n not easy to step on it either.
u noe.
u can jus slip off ani moment.
belaying wasnt easy too.
flying up ani moment u can!
i mean. if ur not alert.
haha.overall.it was still fun.
considering it sum new challenge?
yep.mayb.
haha.waited so long in e queue.
jus to get to "play" e flying fox.
ended up doin abseiling.
fun. haha.should make it higher.
but still prefer flying fox.
din hav e chance.
oh yea. n e night walk.
solo de.
so eerie.
so muddy.
n so dirty!
haha. dirtied my every single tee i wore.
cos of hugging pole!
n e damn pole is jus lyk so dirty.
haha.ok.but e night walk was reali fun.
although neva encounter ani scary part.
even e team building tingy rox.
tot it might be boring.
station games was neva fun to mi.
seems lyk i have a diff idea of it now?
yep.haha.
now my both arms hurts.
so tired. Zzz

damn. i got into 3-3.
take lit summore.
haha. but still taking a maths =))
no bio for mi.
guess my sci r jus too weak.
cant help it.
i am not interested either.
i mean not interested in physics n chemistry.
haha.but not bio.
mayb i should jus opt to drop.
poa may be much better den lit huh.
i mean lit. tat is a super boring sub.
not interested either.
yea.

2004-11-11T06:06:00.000-08:00

nah.wat can i say?
u r so well-info?
shan't write bout you animore.
tink a written diary might be so much btr.
den this.

lalalala.

went to east coast n hav bs at e mac 2dae.
weird huh.
haha.got distracted by e surrounding.
went cycle wid bs group after tat.
hmm.mayb not a group.
onli 3 turn up.
e third wan was a guy.
tink from another bs group de.
hy dunno how cycle.
so chinky teach her.
haha.fast learner~
chinky n her caught up wif us soon after tat.

den went to bowl.
whao.
reali funni.
i luff lot.
haha.
e funniest bowling game i ever c.
chinky got it video down.
sum of e stupid moves.
gotta c it one fine day =))

heez.now i want learn how ice skate.
whao.wanted to try tat out long ago.
roller blade!
haha. how long hav i not been doin tat?
lalala.i am happi 2dae =)
wan learn drum.
wan learn bass.
wan try out every outdoor activity. =))
haha.seriously prefer tat more den shopping!
sumtimes i tink shopping jus aint my ting.
unless i got tat cash.
n in need of sth seriously.
haha. =P

whee.
tml camp.
10.30 le. haven even pack a single ting.
tink back from camp den blog.

2004-11-10T19:40:00.000-08:00

i am selfish.
wat r u?
wen hav i not been tat aniwae.
in e way u c it n everyting.

i did it again.

everyting's over.

shan't blog ani further.

2004-11-09T23:30:00.000-08:00

whee! so happie 2dae! haha. no idea. came home from huiyan house. feeling cheery. hmm.although i guess chinky was quite disppointed 2dae. onli 2 ppl turn up. n tats mi n huiyan. gonna have make-up tis cuming thurs. tink it gotta be fun.

went out wif huiyan after bs. went to junction 8. den to heartland mall. haha.got tired of walking .so went to slp in e mrt .north-east line. was travelling here n dere. w/o getting down. whao. n noe wat. still was so earli. so went back to sch. "visit" chinky. haha. back to huiyan house after goin library. wasnt doin anyting down dere either. jus simply slacking. went home quite earli too. haha. dun wanna c her mum. tats y. =))

unexpected. got everyting cleared 2dae. tats e main reason y i am feeling so HIGH now!! haha. oki. got a chat wif you. a reali nice wan i guess. could even manage to hear ur voice after such long miserable periods.so was reali reali happi. u din noe how much i miss tat voice. ok. was glad you call too. reali glad. even happier tat u tried explaining everyting to mi.although i noe tings wun jus go back to e past. it will neva be too . but seriously i am not tinking bout tat animore. i jus simple miss you. neva thought of goin back to e past again. i noe it jus impossible. mayb not. but it wouldnt be possible for now. i wouldnt even tried to tink out of e box now . whee~ i am reali happie 2dae!!

2004-11-08T22:54:00.000-08:00

i am sad.reali sad.cried.a short wan. got a msg. e reply was totally out of point. for wat i hav expected. cheerful? have i been lidat since i was alone.mayb.but tat wasnt expected wen i am alone.i mean.u noe. e both "alone" got a diff meaning. hav i forgotten. everyting? no.i haven.i noe u did. ur hurting mi lidat. i hate you. bet it was her hu told u. but dun u noe e person feels differently from a inside n e outside. i am bleeding in e inside. seriously bleeding. i detest you. i neva feeling better. den b4. so dun tell mi i am. i feel lyk . i am getting worse. i am reali tinking too much. rite now.i feel lyk crying. i feel lyk smashing everyting on e floor.i feel lyk punching you.n you too. i feel lyk shouting.screaming.yelling my head off. at you. both of you. am i feeling ani better? i tell you. i am not! i hate you. tings would neva be e same again. tings wouldnt jus vanish out of my mind. i seriously hope u would be reading my blog. can u jus spare sum thought for mi. u wun. cos i dun tink i would either. ok.i am selfish in tis way. u cant change mi. but i can.forget it. i dunno wat e hell i am trying to say. i cant understand. neither can you. stop being nosy. nvm.ur jus showing "care".it gone the wrong way.sheesh. i am reali being so selfish now.i hate it. reminded by my best frien now. feeling so guilty. ok. tis is all e trials. i must rmb wat i hav learn in bs. james 1:1-4 . i guess God testing my faith. n i have to persevere. it will be pure joy once i have pass tat test. =))

2004-11-08T20:40:00.000-08:00

whao.woke up at 12 plus 2dae. kinda surprised.been a long time since i woke up late. without bro disturbing mi.

left e house full of energy. till it came to drill time. drain off all my energy le. was super tiring. i mean after e drill pract. combine squads. 4 squads i guess. diff commander. but most of it was amanda. strict i can say. tiring .boring.every single word u can come out to describe.tis was it. haha.although the fun part tat is. we hav lotsa break. =))

did a stupid ting last nite.reali stupid. guess i was too tired to even tink. but seriously tired and e worst part is i cant slp. u noe. tat sort of ting. so went tinking on e bed. tinking bout you. bout everyting we did. yea. den tinking got out of hand. i decided to msg. tell you how was i feeling n tinking n everyting. tat was reali stupid of mi. got no reply in e morning either. felt more stupid den b4. shouldnt even hav touch my hp in e first place.wondering how tings r now.hope it had not got out of hand.previous blog** i say i hav overcome it. i guess i lied. i haven. =( mayb no one would jus understand.its reali hard to let go. let jus be it. care-less.

whoo.huiyan home alone now.haha.wonder how she's doin.supposed to cum my house.but sum prob came up.

having bible study earli in e morning tml.hav to wake up so earli again.oopx.haven done my quiet time 2dae.guess would be doing at nite again.hope wat i hav been doin is correct.seems wrong.dunno.will c tml den.

whee.pec camp is drawing near.haha.but i lost e list of wat to bring n stuff.guess hav to ask peeps help mi photocopy or sth lidat.not much tings to bring i ting.hope so.wouldnt wan my bag to be too heavy.haha.wanna buy a camp bag.so much easier for all my camp in e future den.yep.great load easy.i can bet on tat =))

oopsie.still own so many ppl their bdae present.better get all during the hols.hope dey wun get disappointed. should have get it on time i noe. how unsincere. =(

haha.sis fallen aslp in bed studying.better wake her up.having her o's now.guess she hav no time to waste.but she dun seems to hav it tat way.

whoo.i got a laggy hp now.wanna change asap.but seems lyk dad dragging it. better choose a nice wan but not so ex kind. dun wanna be a burden to em. i mean e burden of finding a large amount of cash jus to get e hp 4 mi. i guess is not worth it =)

2004-11-07T22:56:00.000-08:00

What kind of little girl were YOU?
uh.tomboy? haha.i guess so. neva was a gurl gurl type aniwae. yea. din lyk skirt wen i was young. tink it kinda sux. i mean young.haha.so wat kind of little girl are you? yoohoo~try tis out!

2004-11-07T19:50:00.000-08:00

eeww. my bro stinks. doesnt he hav ani sense. trust him to act cute in e public. oh.get real. tis isnt cute at all. hmm.dad ordering e pizza&kfc delivery. haha.ok.my stomach growling aniwae.good timing. heez. cant wait to go all e camps.esp the pec wan.bet it gonna be fun. wif e rock-climbing n stuff. cant wait for everyting tats gonna happen.haha. lyk i noe wats gonna happen -.- . i guess i am better off wif him.after all the tinking n tinking. i guess i am more cheery lidat.back to my true old self huh.although its reali hard. but it jus e fact. we aint tat bad either.i mean now. is jus lyk we needed sum time apart. but i am not trying to say we can get back together again.its jus highly impossible. mayb not. but i dun tink i wanna turn tings all back again. if not. everytings tat happen likely to happen all over again. mayb we would jus remain lidat. at least we tok? ok.haha.onli say "morning" n "nite".but at least i consider wats tat call a "friend".its seriously better den we bein nth.i dun wan tat. i am living alrite now. i lurve e way i am. e life i having now. mayb it would be jus lyk tis. but definitely it could be improve.yep. so hav i overcome my prob? yes. i guess i did =) whoo.been on e com e whole dae.uh.since morning.hmm.tml having drill again.hope it would be "fun".haha.tis coming sat my pec camp le.how sad.its onli 2 daes.but it still better den not having it rite? haha. getting my result n posting class on tat dae too. but i wun be goin. sis n mum would.hope cher wouldnt tok much bout mi. haha.hope i would post to a gd class. nah.i dun mind goin to 3-4 now.cos base on my result.i tink most likely i would end up dere.so i guess its reali alrite =) erm.unless i am taking lit instead of a maths. if tat happen. i would cry** =( hope not!

2004-11-07T15:50:00.000-08:00

Your Icecream Flavour is...Neopolitan!

You aren't satisfied with just one flavor. They say variety is the spice of life and this shines through in your Ice cream of choice! Just don't eat all the chocolate and leave the strawberry and vanilla behind!

What is your Icecream Flavour?

hey.haha.another quiz.try tis out.

2004-11-07T15:29:00.000-08:00

whoo.slp so late last nite.slept at 2? tink my eye bag growing le.haha.hmm.tink 2dae staying home slack again.too lazi go out.haha.love e song [welcome to my life] by simple plan.tink its lyrics reali depicts how a person feels n everyting.yep.so tats y i lurve e song.haha.ok.music rock my world.hmm.jus had my lunch.din eat reali much.no appettite. din even hav my rice. jus simply eat the dishes.vegie! aint tat full reali. haha.been doin my quiet time in e nite instead of morning. weird huh.mayb i reali still not use to it. argh. must cultivate tis habit. haha.better be.

2004-11-07T00:07:00.000-08:00

Universal Prayer
by Tiziano Ferro

what what~ x3
nah nah nah nah~

i'm just the same as you
i could be the same age too
so do the same music you do
everyday
no matter what separates us
the same stars we see at night
no matter what's up against us
still gonna have dreams burning bright
i believe we fear what we dont know
we can be our own enemy
but if we conquer that
if you take my hand
i see a girl you see a man

[chorus]
everybody has the same dream
a dream in their heart
give a chance to make it right
love somebody they want
open your eyes we're all the same
we've all been scared
so lets sing together now
nah nah nah nah
in this universal prayer

what what~ x3
yeahhhh heyyyyy
nah nah nah nah

i see smoking lies
they complicate a simple life
i'm here and you are there
miles away
only that we do
is believe
that anything you want
you can reach
there's no limit to what we could be
so open your mind and set yourself free
i believe we fear what we dont know
we can be our own enemy
but if we conquer that
if you take my hand
i see a girl you see a man

[chorus]

and if you say that i'm naive
that i dont understand the world at all
you might be right but it seems to me
that we've come to far to fall
cos i believe that tears
are dried seeds that've sown
the harvest time will come
and all this pain will go
so try to understand
we're just grains of sand
every woman every man

[chorus]

2004-11-06T14:23:00.000-08:00

whee.finally can blog? haha.waited so long.seems to hav sum prob wif e webbie ydae.oh well.dere goes.hmm.ydae drill.commander was down right serious.haha.yep.but its alright.did made sum improvement.feeling cheery tis morning =).oh ya. happi bdae jeeyan! smile**.hmm.hav a tok wif him ydae nite.din reali turn out nice again.haha.was showing attitude to him.guess i over reacted.yep.its mi prob.not his.i cant let go.so tats my biggest fault.should learn to overcome it one dae =P. did my quiet time tis morning.din reali understand wat it was trying to tell mi.i couldnt get it.mayb i'll be reading it again later.yep.hope chinky feeling better now.i mean his thought.not physically.yep.more den a cher indeed.reali glad noe him.hmm.staying home 2dae slack again.wonder wat i'll be doin.slp? mayb.

2004-11-04T20:32:00.000-08:00

throat still hurt.was quite moody 2dae.hmm.bible study was meaningful 2dae.at least i gotta learn sum tings.went out wif friens. karen. reena. huiyan.jeremy.after helping their class wif e cip.to bugis.watch movie [shark tale].den went eat at sakae sushi.the food wasnt reali nice.came to noe bout sth.tink lot again.imagining scene which i shouldnt.but cant blame.i cant control it aniwae.he went "dere" ydae.it was quite hard to believe.watever it is.he went "dere".begining to hate you lot."you" is a her.dun blame mi.i din wanted to.mayb jealousy overcome mi.keep telling myself tis has nth to do wif mi.but i jus cant let go.everyting hurts.all the stars i hav made.i wanted to throw em away.but i cant bear to.but i gonna do it sooner or later aniwae.shouldnt even bother bout ani ting.dun even hav to care.but i choose to.y did she hav to be so "nice".shivering? blankets? tell mi its all rubbish n i'll believe u.ok.i shouldnt mind so much aniwae.he got his own life.i got mine.i should have jus stay out of everyting tat got to do wif him.i reali dun wanna care.everyting's a lie.i hate you.no.i dun wanna.i'll pray.when home bout 6.30 2dae.walk in the rain.wan to catch a cold.but din manage to do so.

2004-11-03T22:20:00.000-08:00

haha.my tagboard seems to have no "life" in it.watever.flood it.tag.ok.ooh.now my neck starts to hurt.hmm.received sum rubbish testi from friendster.name "friendster".dunno hu e hell issit oso.dun bother.hate this kind of freaky peeps.haha.tink i lack of slp.everydae so tired.
erm.jus received another msg.i guess he still care.i dunno.everyting aint gonna be right aniwae.hardly opportunity to do so le.yep.so should jus get him out of my mind.my life.my everyting.i tried.its reali hard.mayb jus shouldnt tink too much.oki.received another msg.to slp earli.haiz.oki.i noe he still care.argh.dun tink!! dun tink....
hmm.got bs in sch earli in e morning tml.at 8.tis is crazy.gotta wake up so earli.haha.better not be late again.cant afford to do so.end at 9.dunno wat i 'll be doin after tat.most probably goin home.tis is gonna be totally boring.but ware else can i go.mayb tag along wif friens.i hope so.haha.

2004-11-03T17:48:00.000-08:00

my throat hurts.jus swallowing my saliva would kill.condition worsen from ydae.my head hurts too.but its getting better.hmm.i was late for drill 2dae.but doesnt reali matter.heez.drill was totally cool 2dae.haha.its lyk we spend bout 2 n a half hour polishing boots? but of cos.i din.haha.cos i wanna buy new boots le.so dun bother to polish my old wan.intend to dump it right after i got my new boots.so was jus sitting down dere.doin nth? yea.den start drill after tat le.onli 30 mins.commander got a bit of "serious" 2dae.i mean more den usual.haha.but e members are still slacking.so we r still totally lag behind.dere's hardly we can catch up aniwae.i doubt so.ok.goin out to mac soon.wif sis n bro.

2004-11-03T13:22:00.000-08:00

yippee! so happi.haha.dun ask mi.i dunno y either.mayb i am jus faking it.but heck.haha.
i ask for it 2dae le.but e ans was a no.yea.was definitely sad.cried.but.tink it was worth it.at least i noe how tings goin on le.it jus gotta be lyk tis.i dun wanna care le.i din reply after tat aniwae.so y bother.but another msg came at bout.erm.12? to meet up.oki i say.but a moment later another msg came n it was a no.oki i say.den it was all gone lyk tis le.haha.ok.dun wanna care so much bout it oso.
whao.if i dun move out of e house right now.i gonna be late for drill le.dun tink jing xuan mind aniwae.seems to be slacking awaez.haha.ok.blog wen i am back home again.

2004-11-02T23:21:00.000-08:00

i guess everyting wouldnt be e same again.far off den friens.everyting's jus bad.real bad.life's reali a drag now.need my friens badly.hmm.dunno y.haha.hardly skip meals de.but been doin that since e start of holi.guess i got tired of all e food le? so unlyk mi.haha.hmm.been staying home since.uh.erm.sunday? so lazi go out.facing the screen whole dae long.hu cares aniwae.tink i should jus shut my com now n go slp.

2004-11-02T18:54:00.000-08:00

How to make a emilyn

Ingredients:
1 part anger
5 parts brilliance
3 parts

Method:
Combine in a tall glass half filled with crushed ice. Add caring to taste! Do not overindulge!

2004-11-02T16:51:00.000-08:00

waiting.waiting for ya msg.but it seems lyk ages.i doubt i'll received it either.i dunno.i miss you.miss you reali lot.feel lyk meeting ya up n hav a nice chat.but jus tinking of everyting.i would cry.everyting seems so impossible now.flunk my hope of goin into 3-2 too.hardly believe i can remain in 3-3 either.jus bcos i failed my sci.sci aint my sub.i hate it.sadly it was one of e main sub.jus hope time would turn back.everyting would be diff den.i would be studying hard.even mayb i wouldnt be lyk tis.i would take e effort to change.everyting jus wouldnt be e same.but dere's no return le.sumtimes i regret.sumtimes i tink i am right.i tink i am jus stubborn.i dunno.dun wanna be.but i wanna thank the Lord for everyting.He hu guide mi thru in everyting i do.during the exam period.during times wen i am down.during times wen i tink i am lost.n hav no one to turn to.thank you Lord.hmm.got a book from mr chin [bible study].titled[heroes of the faith].bio of samuel morris.read bout 1/4 of the book le.quite interesting.

2004-11-02T14:56:00.000-08:00

my life's a total drag.i am running away.running into that unknown world.full of freaks.i am so lost.but i know i made e right decision.it wouldnt be ani better if i jus continue life lidat.

i hate you.i hate mi.i know i am wrong.i regret what i have not done.but do you have to allow this to carry on.stop being so over-sensitive.

dun wanna tink so much.dun wanna cry.dun wanna stay home alone.but so lazi go out le.hmm.tml got drill.tink will be slacking away again.so lag.